Posts by Miss Behaving

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New Shunning Video - RC 2016

by wifibandit in

https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=g20rww_-7ua.

"Hope for what we do not see" - Review

by problemaddict 2 in

i give it 3 thumbs down.. the video starts with an ambulance in peru.

the ambulance people look at an id and a no blood card in spanish.. quick flash away to now and a happy family of a couple with 2 young boys.

all good kids it collages their everyday life, all centered around theocratic activities.

No excuses. The message seems to be that if this brother could obey, the rest of the rank and file have no excuse for missing meetings and not falling into line. Cancer, grief, depression; suck it up and go out in field service.

It's amazing how they're able to beat the flock, and pretend to understand what they're going through simultaneously.

(I was only able to stomach the first ten minutes, but this was the impression that I got.)

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shutting down topics now?

by disposable hero of hypocrisy in

http://www.jehovahs-witness.com/topic/5744214272901120/suicide-idea?page=3&size=10.

i can't comment on this topic on either of my devices or multiple browsers.. so we're shutting down topics now are we?

i'm assuming you've disabled commenting due to your feeling that it's a troll.

Miss Behaving

I was really helped by reading all of the replies that were on that thread... maybe I was too blunt about talking about my suicidal feelings too, but I had really been thinking about it, and then I jumped onto here and saw that thread at the top of the page and I clung to every word like it was a life-preserver.

It helped me decide to try to talk to a councilor on Monday, even though I'm here at work crying in the bathroom. So please, even if you think... sorry i can't finish my thought

Just thank you. I'm glad I could see it

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Why the world can be a beautiful place

by Miss Behaving in

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when we're witnesses we learned to emphasize everything that's hopeless and bad about the world.

i'd like a place to read and write about what there is to appreciate about being here.. maybe this has been done before, i'm not sure because the search function doesn't work on my phone.

i'm not trying to mess anything up.. anyways, here goes:.

Miss Behaving

When we're witnesses we learned to emphasize everything that's hopeless and bad about the world. I'd like a place to read and write about what there is to appreciate about being here.

Maybe this has been done before, I'm not sure because the search function doesn't work on my phone. If so, I'm sorry. I'm not trying to mess anything up.

Anyways, here goes:

-I have no money, and yet I can go to college. Education isn't just for the upper classes anymore, knowledge is available for anybody who wants it.

-Internet: we can connect with people across the world. Listen to any kind of music, read books, watch a cartoon, all with a touch of our fingers.

-Most people are kind. Last week a duckling flew into the swimming pool at my school and I watched 6 of my classmates try to rescue it.

-libraries

-huge variety of clothing and food choices.

-the freedom to be who we really are (unless who you really are is a murderer or something)

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Are you people the Watchtower?

by Richard C B in

are you people 'the watchtower'?.

no - we're an independent community site offering support for both current and former jehovah's witnesses and anyone else who has been affected by the beliefs, doctrines and practices of the jehovah's witness religion as governed by the watch tower bible and tract society (wtb&ts).. we are not affiliated with the wtb&ts in any way and we take your privacy and security very seriously doing our utmost to protect your identity and provide a friendly, tolerant and informative environment where you can ask questions, share information and make new friends.

membership is completely free and anonymous so why not join toda.

Miss Behaving

Troll

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I would rather be in the JW cult than the ex-jw cult

by questioningmyfaith in

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i have posted one other time on this website.

just for the mere fact that i wasn't anger and bitter and ready to declare the gb the sociopathic criminals that so many here ascribe to, my initial question digressed to bickering over ad hominem attacks against the gb and not my beliefs that i'm questioning.

some did give me some help on my questions.

Miss Behaving

It's shocking when you find out that your entire mental/spiritual world is fabricated. When you discover that the friends and family whose opinions you've respected for years, are actually the victims of a mind control cult. After something like that it's understandable to become a little paranoid, and see 'cult' in everything. Not much of a stretch, especially when we've been taught that everyone outside the org is Satan controlled.

When I was leaving, I caught a glimpse of myself in the mirror, one of those glimpses where you see what you actually are. I saw someone so arrogant, so self-righteous, so ready to judge and condemn everyone else. I didn't like it, but I looked around and saw that this belief system makes people become that.

Reading your post, it reminds me of what I saw in myself. There is no one right and proper way to be. There's more than one right answer. There aren't 'evil-doers' here, just some angry hurting people, people angry because they are hurting.

Anyways, that's my 2 cents.

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Pshycos! - 2016 "Remain Loyal to Jehovah" Regional Convention Program

by thedepressedsoul in

wow this is interesting!

i think how much emphasis this puts on "loyalty" shows their is an issue.

they're trying to plug the wholes as much and quickly as possible.

Miss Behaving

That last public discourse is such mind twisting double-speak. 'When will loyal love triumph over hatred?' Hmm, I don't know Watchtower, maybe when you stop spending three days of everyone's time teaching folks to hate themselves, to be paranoid about everyone who isn't a perfect witness, to preach that God will viciously murder their neighbors. Ministry of love, indeed.

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Within 2 years I see... KH Karaoke...Seriously

by HowTheBibleWasCreated in

this evening at the clam the job video was played and then the stupid peer pressure video.

this was not so odd.

however on the last elijah section pictures from the imitate their faith book was place on screen to imagine the scenes.

Miss Behaving

I'm embarrassed to say that I memorized the first 50 new kingdom maladies before I woke up. I didn't just drink the cool-aide, I bathed and swam in it and spit it out like a fountain.

But hey! On the upside, my capacity to memorize lots of useless information is the tops :)

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Talking to a wall

by ivanatahan in

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why must these people be figurative walls when talking about the lies of the jw cult?.

the other day, i had a conversation with my mother.

we started talking about the election and how the candidates differ (me being a supporter of bernie).

Miss Behaving

At least you know that you really tried. You approached her like a reasonable human being, gave her a chance to give a logical argument. All she could do was toss back the party lines.

It bites to lose the people we love. Even if we don't get DF'd, there's a mental/emotional connection we never get back. I don't blame my folks anymore. I see them as victims of a virulent and manipulative ideology. If I were ever in proximity to the GB though... well... it would be hard to stay civil

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having a dark night of the soul

by Miss Behaving in

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i'm writing this here because i need someone to talk to, and you're the only folks i know who will understand.

most of the time i think i'm a pretty happy and together person, but lately, i'll see something that reminds me of my family and i'll spontaneously start crying.

i miss them so much and my heart keeps breaking, and even though i have kind people i work and volunteer with, i feel so incredibly lonely sometimes.

Miss Behaving

Thank you so much for everyone's kind words. Sorry it took me a little while to respond. I had been feeling incredibly down lately, and I really appreciate all the thoughtful responses and ideas.

Maybe this is magical thinking, but I believe all of the goodwill and well wishes from here really did something. After I posted, I went for a walk, I stopped to get some coffee and strangely I found a person to talk to. I met a man who had been through the foster care system. We talked about how hard it can be to make it without a family. I realized that as tough as things are, I'm pretty damn lucky; to be alive, to be healthy, to not have addictions.

When we're Witnesses, they teach us that it's wrong to have dreams, that it's wrong to want something for yourself. When I left, I didn't have any hopes or dream or hobbies, I just had a strong will to survive and be free. Well, I've sort of got those things but it's not really enough.

So here's my first real dream: Someday I'm going to create a charity that helps people who've lost their social support; whether it's because they've left a cult, or left an abusive family, or found themselves starting over late in life. It will help connect them with the resources they need as well as psychological support. I have no idea how I'm going to do it, but I've begun reading about 501c3's and I'm declaring my major as business next semester.

Maybe this is a sign that even though I've left the cult, I haven't left the programming of needing to save the world. But, I don't really care, it's what I'd like to do, and I may as well put all this trauma to good use.

Thanks for caring about me, and caring about my existence. I'm doing better, the world is looking a little less dark today.

I'm going to go find something funny to watch, and laugh a little. I hope you have peace wherever you are.

Love, Miss B